to everything there is a season and purpose under heaven.. a time to laugh and cry.. a time of peace and a time of war ..and stuff like that! can't quote it word for word but it's one of my favorite verses. It lets me know there is purpose in everything. anger has it's place and purpose, anger drives me to get up when i'm knocked down and births determination inside me therefore it is a welcome gift of god.
I never refuse prayer for healing, i accept it with gratitude. who am i to say what god's plan is. maybe he needs me in this form always, maybe he only needs me in this form for a time. all i know is i wouldn't exchange my life for any other and for whatever purpose god needed this soul to come into this world in this form for his plan to be accomplished. it's not gods will for his children to be ill but i've been strangely healthy since a teen. i've lived 28 yrs longer then doctors expected. my disability is reasonably stable and my loss of function slowed to a snails pace. love hope and strength has always found me in the dark. i don't have pain like many who live life from a wheelchair.. no muscles spasm.. few aches and pains.. tendon contractures are there but mild considering i never stretch. this body is different, but living and living quite happily.. with the occasional crisis of the heart that marks our humanity so well and reminds us to appreciate our blessings.
what defines illness? a body that doesn't meet mankinds definition of health? i'm more concerned with gods definition of health and god has granted me health. i am living and breathing with the opportunity to make a difference everyday. i have love and i have loved and i have cherished it the point of crisis when it is over. i have won battles against my fears and continue to grow. This is health, this is all good things that god granted humanity and intended for them experience so that in the end they may live within the glory of his presence. disabled is a label i use to describe my unique form and life experiences but it is NOT a broken label. it is a label that is alive and ever changing and over flowing with the purpose of life.
"Perfect only in her imperfection"